Oh, this house...

This house is a disaster. How did I get so messy and unorganized?? Wedding planning maybe? The stress of moving? Both?.. 

I am ready to just stash all my stuff in boxes. I don’t need anything but a bed, a tv, food, and my phone. Everything else needs to go in a box until we move.

But I can’t do that just yet..

Mom is coming Saturday to help me organize everything and get it all ready for packing, though. I hope that makes me feel better. I’m so tired of everything. Everything in this house is driving me crazy. I hate it. It’s all from my bachelorette days. My single days.. 
Even when I was dating someone, back then.. I won’t say names… I was still single. I was unhappy and alone in this apartment for a long time and everything in here is decorated like a single, lonely, female lives here.

I’m ready for my home to look like a happy married couple lives here. But there is no point in redecorating somewhere I won’t live for long. We move in less than a month. We are out of here by end of August.

Can you believe that?? Moving AND getting married in the same 4 weeks. I will be one lucky bitch if I get out of this seizure free. Stress is an understatement. But I’m trying not to be too freaked out.

It didn’t take long for the wedding drama to start, of course. But so far I have my people under control and Kerry is keeping his.. One person.. Under control.. So for now everything is going as I want. But I’m still waiting for shit to hit the fan.

Either way, there are a lot of changes ahead. And I’m stressed. But nowhere near as bad as I plan to be.

*deep breaths*

Well, anyway.. Now I’m just blabbing.

I need to just take some time, while I can, to relax and keep my mind calm. I’m going to worry about organizing and cleaning when mom is here this weekend and until then I am getting some rest and doing some laundry.

This diet hasn’t been helping, either. I want a damn Sundrop so bad, I could scream. I cut them out and stopped. I quit cold turkey. And it’s killing me. Don’t get me wrong, I woke up this morning feeling so skinny and healthy. I don’t crave things as badly as I used to. But soda? Oh my lord….

I’m thankful Kerry drank all the Dr. Pepper we had because I would have chugged one down this morning, no questions asked. I had no will power this morning, so thankfully all the sodas were gone this morning and we had nothing but water. So I know I’ll at least look good for my wedding. I’m pretty thrilled about it!! :)

Our engagement photos are this weekend, too.. Which I’m stressed about but I’m also excited. Not only are the pictures going to be amazing, but I can finally get all of the wedding invitations together!!! That’s going to be so fun!! I can’t wait to decorate them and customize them and mail them all out!! ❤️

I have a feeling once the engagement pictures are done and the invites are out, everything is going to become extremely real. I’m gonna lose it. I don’t know how I’ll be able to sleep from the excitement..

I just can’t believe I am marrying Kerry Seifried!! Of all people, Kerry Seifried!! It couldn’t be more perfect… But I’ll save that spill for another time.. For now, I have more laundry to do. And I need to rest.

Time to finish this load of laundry.